I’m physically and emotionally drained:( I’ve been crying almost constantly for the last 24 hours, which makes my head, neck, back, and shoulders hurt even more than they normally do:( I desperately need my luck to change and in the meantime, I need those who are supposed to care about me to stop making me feel like crap. Is that too much to ask? I should probably be use to this by now, but everything was getting to me today. I use to be the “strong one” in my family…now, I’m just a burden and they never let me forget it. I’m struggling to find reasons why the world wouldn’t be better off without me. I would never act on this, but I can’t help how I feel. I’m sorry for being such a downer, but I just needed to let some of that out. Thanks for listening and letting me vent a little.
Thank you for sharing your feelings with us....It is hard to do sometimes, ya know...
This is the place to come to let it out and vent...Lord knows, I constantly come here for you guys to pull me up when I am so down I don't think I'll ever get up.
It is hard for family to see us ill I think and in my case my family sometimes comes off as flat out disgusted with me...which in turn makes me feel like a loser...but I am NOT...and EITHER ARE YOU!!!! You are SUFFERING!!!!!! Does that make you a burden??? NO!!!!!!
They probably don't know what to do or say ...they know they cannot fix you..so they in turn are angry...not at you..but the situation....Just a thought..what do you think???
It is weird how life works sometimes...I want my family to accept me as me and my limitations...and there are many times I cry ..wondering.."What the hell is wrong with these people???" They just don't get it. But I cannot change them..as much as I'd LOVE TO!!!!! I always figured family would be the most commpassionate.....NOT ALWAYS!!!
SO....For me, anyway..I get my support here...from you, Crystal and the whole gang. This is where to be YOU...You are not a downer...you are going through a rough time...It will get better...hang on to that hope....easier said than done...Sweet Jesus, do I know that!!!
Please let us know how you are doing today...PLEASE.
We will never be the person we were before CM destroyed our lives and who we thought we were. I try daily to embrace my new life and it usually doesn't workout so good. It is almost like we have to mourn who we were, and let that person go & rise from the ashes a new person. I would go crazy thinking about what I used to do and can't now. Know I am crying with you. You are a wonderful person. Please give yourself a break. Vent here anytime....You are truly cared about here. You can call me anytime 804-■■■■■■■■. I am usually at home. You really aren't alone.
Thank you Katie, Lori, and Tracy:) Your kind and encouraging words mean alot to me. I don’t know what I would do without you guys. Sorry, I took so long to get back to you all. I had to work today, which was probably the best thing for me. It’s hard on me physically, but I needed to get out of my house and get my mind off things. Thank you all again for listening and caring.