To my many friends,
I apologize for not being around. I though I was turning a corner and coming to grips with several things and well I got blindsided by others things plus a great flare up which is kicking my butt big time.
Anyhow in a nutshell here is some of what is going on and why I am so stressed out and why I have not been on much lately. Katrina is having health problems again (the usual ongoing). Emma got a couple bouts of the flu. and Alyssa is on and off with a stomach virus and we think she is cutting teeth. Chrissy is stressed with the kids being sick and me suffering with POTS flare ups, CM headaches, and the corresponding fatigue and general crankiness that goes with it. I feel sorry for her cause she is in a losing situation but today seems to be getting better.
That is just here in other family news my grandma got moved into a nursing home for Alzheimer's/Dementia and lets say it is rough getting information about how she is doing from certain relations cause they thinks various things. This stresses me more which make everything worse and I try to relax but it is hard cause she help raise my brother and I and at 91 years of age, I wish I could do more but a phone call from relations would go a long way to say hey here is what is going on. The other things with Gram is that it takes 1.5 hours to drive from my place to where she is at, not that it is all that long but when symptoms are flaring up and everything else, well ya'll know how it is and what it is like trying to do something like that type of trip.
Finally with other family, some of you talked with my step mother when I was being decompressed, well she is not doing to well as I found out she has an abdominal aneurism when I got back from the NS today. So needless to say stress and insomnia are winning right now.
I've been in a dark and lonely place and I know all of you are here to help no matter what stage we are in with our journey, but I felt as if I could not even take care of myself, how would I be even to help others. I am sorry I have been absent, I will try to be here more.
Thank you all for what you do and keep up the good work.