I am going to try something new for me....I am going to start a journal of sorts..just a notebook ..on my desk...
My title is:
FEELINGS ARE NOT FACTS!!!!!!!!!!!
I am going to try to 'give up' negative thinking...A negative thinking fast.
You see, I think I may be my own worse enemy when it comes to my overall well-being...If I feel like I have no earthy worth....I am a bad mom, wife ect....I soon believe it to be true.
So, if I "FEEL" like a loser..I am going to counter that thought with something positive about myself in my little notebook...
As most of us know..Chiari can do a number on your self worth/ self esteem...which in turn doesn't help the pain..that is why I am giving this a shot!!!
Suffering a little today as I went to the Van Halen concert last night. As long as I concentrated on the stage I did ok, as soon as I looked up or down the anxiety took over. The noise was ear numbing but had a good time with my hubby!
We are taking the kids to Disney next week. We fly out on Sunday! I know this trip will push all my buttons to the point of breaking but I'm hoping and praying my excitement for the kids over rules my anxiety....steadily praying for that!
I have scheduled my surgery for June 18th. Physically and emotionally tired of the pain and feelings of uselessness.
Lori, that sounds like a wonderful idea. I know I could benefit from giving up negative thinking. Writing things down has always been therapeutic for me. I know my physical pain is worse when I have had a lot of stress and negative thoughts.
Try to remember you are a good mom, wife and friend. You try your best with what you are given.
How exciting to be headed to Disney!!! I am taking two of my daughters and a niece to Disneyland by myself in March. This is my first big trip on my own since surgery last Sept. I feel better than I have in years so we should have a lot of fun.
Let's us know how your trip goes. BTW, I'm jealous of the Van Halen concert. You are a lucky girl.
Diana
Kajosmom said:
Glad to hear your doing good today!
Suffering a little today as I went to the Van Halen concert last night. As long as I concentrated on the stage I did ok, as soon as I looked up or down the anxiety took over. The noise was ear numbing but had a good time with my hubby!
We are taking the kids to Disney next week. We fly out on Sunday! I know this trip will push all my buttons to the point of breaking but I'm hoping and praying my excitement for the kids over rules my anxiety....steadily praying for that!
I have scheduled my surgery for June 18th. Physically and emotionally tired of the pain and feelings of uselessness.
Sounds like a great idea....Believe me when I tell you that you are a wonderful productive person. We value you everyday. I have said before you have to mourn the person you used to be & rise from the ashes the new you. Just because you can't do everything you could before it isn't bad. Just different.
Hey Lori great way to SEE for yourself you ARE WORTH the AIR you breathe. How are your family members being/dealin/coping with you while you are in this state? I dont mean to say they should be boosting your ego but they too should be seeing that they need to be HELPING you through this time and not hindering you. I hope they are receptive to this journal you are doing, and PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE if they say anything negative about it DO NOT LISTEN to them....it is the right thing to do!! & you are doing this for YOU!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~HUGS~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
might i suggest this excercise: write your negative thought, then a positive productive thought
like lets say 2-20-12 today i feel i am a bad mother because i forgot to do my sons laundry and he needed his uniform for practice...........However i am a GOOD mother because I remembered to pick him up today :D -- you see what iam saying? I was given this excercise when i was at my most depressed and it was most helpful. and actually when i look back on some of them now i think wow how silly of me to think i was a bad person for some of the reasons i wrote down.
I still battle depression but its not nearly as bad as it had been.
Hang in there Kid (lol i know we are prob same age or there about i say that to alot of ppl-plz dont be offended) we're here for ya ;)
Tracy is right you defidently have to mourn the passing of your old self, that was super hard for me...and was even harder for me to accept after i woke 1/2 bald in a hospital bed not knowing or understanding why.....but here i am today..still able to walk and talk and confused the living crap out of one person at a time...LMAO so i guess Iam still doing my job right!! hahahahahahaha ;) j/k nah, not quite that bad but i still keep my husband on his toes.....but yup shes right accepting the NEW you can sometime be its own stumbling block..
TracyZ said:
Hi Lori,
Sounds like a great idea....Believe me when I tell you that you are a wonderful productive person. We value you everyday. I have said before you have to mourn the person you used to be & rise from the ashes the new you. Just because you can't do everything you could before it isn't bad. Just different.