Pain… So much of it… I’m tired… My eyes hurt… Head is on bang status… I feel so weak… Very agitated… Depressed and some times feeling like ending it when I have a really bad headache…
Im sure others felt like this many times… People say have patience god wont give you too much you can’t handle… Why would anyone want to handle this much pain…
People look at you like you are a hypochondriac… Because they don’t know what we go through… Bosses don’t understand why you can’t talk right or you sound dumb when he asks a question… Or why you are on a 1hr work day… I tell myself that I hate me Everyday because my life is such a puzzle… Been in the bed for 3 days straight… I c a new doctor Friday… I can’t wait…
Nila, I want you to go to the ER pronto. You have been dealing with too much- you need a break. Yes, many of us can relate. Days on end with severe pain can make you have these thoughts, you will start to believe it will never let up. But it will. Sometimes we have to break the cycle with IV pain meds and you are this point, friend. Sweetheart this is not your fault, #1, and #2 you are the strongest person you know, I’m sure, to deal with this hand day in and day out. And you are still trying to work!
Every person has their limits and sounds like you have reached yours- so please act accordingly and get to an ER. Grab some ice in a Baggie, your phone charger, and go or call an ambulance if you can’t drive. Please let us know that you are on your way.
I can’t go. I have children to take care of. Maybe when my husband comes home. I hate going to the military ER… They know me very well and treat me like a hypochondriac… I’m trying to hold off until Friday… It’s like a fresh start for me… I just can’t deal with the pain without meds anymore…
Ok. When hubby gets home. I know you are weighing if it’s worth it to be treated disrespectfully, and I’m so sorry, but it’s important. Remember… We know you here. We know You aren’t crazy you are suffering.
Hi! I’m hanging in there. Had some issues at work today regarding my HIPPA privacy and my job. Tomorrow is my big day. I get to c a new neurosurgeon. Thank you all for being concerned.
Sending prayers your way. I tell myself all the time that if God doesn't give you more than you can handle, he must think I am a total bad@$$!! It is when you are at your lowest when you discover how strong you really are and your faith is renewed and strengthened.
Good luck at your appointment and know that no matter what, you have peeps and all of them understand.
Hey Nila! Best wishes to you at your appt today! I know this isn’t easy and pray you get the help and answers you need today. Keep us posted when you get a chance take care!
Sooo. Im a little disappointed. The doctor said he wouldn’t do the surgery… Sooo I have to endure pain longer… His reasoning was that I definitely have chiari and the symptoms but I have too many underlying migraine symptoms and I wouldn’t benefit from the surgery. He gave me a book to read about chiari… Everything ive read… I already knew… Now what? I don’t kno what to do…