Hi Tracy,
I have not seen a pain management doctor.. I guess I was secretly hoping I wouldn't need to. And honestly with all the Indiana "war against drugs" it almost makes me nervous to even go to one! Its been flooded on the news around here. I know, no excuse, and I do not have a drug problem lol I have actually been weaning myself off lortab, I have been on them for 4 years now and since surgery in March I take around 1 1/2 to 2 a day.. which is a lot better. But I haven't made the next step down yet and I want to.
I have taken Kolonopin but it was only as a "break" from xanax. I have been on xanax for 4 years as well, but I have true anxiety and have well before knowing about chiari. However it makes me tired so I only take 1mg at night which is what i have been on for 2 years, without increasing. If it stops working I switch to kolonopin for a few months then back to xanax. The xanax helps more with my anxiety but not during the day since i don't take anything for it during the day.
I also have baclofen.. it does nothing for me... nothing at all. So I don't take it. Tried it for a month and stopped. I do take flexoril but i was trying to get off of that too, i used to take a whole one every night, 10mg, now I break them in half every night. However this has been two months and when I even try to skip the half, I can tell a big difference in the morning with being so stiff I can't look to the right or left at all without feeling the stretching and hurting. So I think the xanax and flexoril are here to stay until I find something else. I have tried several other drugs over the last 5 years..
Naproxen
cymbalta
imitrex
imitrex air injections
inderral
topamax
midrin
max alt
fieorcet
prozac
effexor xr
wellbutrin
lexapro
Those the ones I remember lol
My doctor hasn't mentioned the occipital neuralgia although I have read about it on my own and it fits my migraines to a T! My PCP does her best, and I love her and I am grateful she hasn't given up on me. She did all my post op care through all the infections and everything since my NS was worthless after surgery. I need a doctor that specializes in all this whether that is a NL or a pain management doctor, I don't care, I am desperate at this point and would try about anything. I would love some kind of shot instead of popping pills, and of course I have horrible reactions to some pills.. topamax being the worst next to inderral which I am allergic too! lol I try not to get "down" as I am a very positive person but I am also used to taking care of my two boys that have special needs. Between their appointments, IEP meetings, homework, tutoring, and driving 500+ miles a week I am exhausted before I even get out of bed! Sunday it was so bad I could barely stand up to support myself. I just felt so weak. ANd then depressed... the whole "I am 32, I can't be like this" sets in and it is downhill from there.
I do love cleaning, I love being on the go, I love being able to manage all the stuff for my kids, but I hate feeling like I got run over in the process! And to think my oldest is almost 11.. so 11 years ago I managed working full time, seeing his 18 specialist at Riley, and he had 5 surgeries in 12 months, then added my second son to the same mix, who also had 6 surgeries, we were up to 8 therapies a week at our house and yet I still worked a full time job, cooked, cleaned, and all that. I finally quit working in 2005 when my youngest turn 1 and found out he had Chiari and needed brain surgery before his other surgeries... he had 3 surgeries in 32 days , one of those his decompression. His Chiari was so bad he could not bare weight on his legs at 12 months old, syrinx and all. Surgery 2 weeks after the MRI since his others were already scheduled. But my gosh he was a completely different baby after his surgery! No more reflux, no constipation, he walked 3 weeks later, no more constant crying out of no where.. and he is still doing fanastic! I am very grateful for that! I hope he continues to have no issues.
Any way, its depressing because I have been remarried for a year now, and sure having a baby does get on my mind, as my husband is younger, never been married, and no children of his own. He says he does not want a baby.. but I think secretly he would like to one. But he also knows physically that it might not be the best for me. Plus I was told I should not have any more after my second c-section, and all the boys medical issues with genetic disorder in my oldest, to the chiari and pierre robin in my youngest. I love me kids and I would do it all over again, but I don't think I could handle a baby with special needs now.. I don't know if I could keep up. So it all just depressing. My youngest told me last weekend, that "we used to have more fun over here" speaking of my house vs. his dads... well for the last 2 months and my ever other weekend with them, I haven't been able to do much at all, let alone take 2 kids some place fun by myself. My husband works on Saturdays, so we try and do something on Sunday. But we used to always do at least one thing out of the house. They see me cry, they saw my off to the ER last week, and I get a "mommy are you ok" from my oldest who really doesn't understand. I try to "hide" as much of it from him as possible... he is my "worrier" child, and very sensitive.
Any way, sorry for the novel. I will do some checking online and see what I can find for a pain management doctor here. Still looking for a cleaning person.. so far no luck!
Thanks for all the replies and suggestions. Again, I don't have my hopes too high for fridays appointment because I know it will lead to big disappointment lol :)
TracyZ said:
I am so sorry you are having these problems. By any chance have you seen a pain mgmt. specialist? I would ask your PCPfor a referral. I have had nerve blocks and ablation and they have helped immensely. I still have major neck pain daily from a rebuilt C Spine & additional surgeries. Have you tried Klonopin? I take 1mg 3 times a day & it's the only thing that helps my neck consistently & I have tried everything. It was developed as a muscle relaxer. Not a nerve pill....it was later found to calm peoples nerves , just as Valium was. I do not recommend Baclofen. Others may. It's did nothing for me but make me tired. I also take Topomax 100 mg 3 times a day because I came off narcotics & 75 mgs of amitriptylene & Fioricet for headaches and other meds when things get bad.I keep emergency meds to keep from going to the ER unless absolutely necessary. Has your Dr's ever said anything about occipital neuralgia may be causing your headaches?
I also understand your frustration. My house used to be spotless then over time I had to realize I could only do my best. I too had to get someone to come in to do my "heavy cleaning."
Please see a pain specialist.I promise it will make the world of difference and they actually help Chiarians. Most Chiarians don't have much luck with NL. Please don't be disappointed. I had one in the hospital that looked at me and said "I am an epileptic expert I know nothing about CM.I asked why she came to see me then. My PCP is great & a friend but he only knows & can do so much. You are a great wife and mother and person. Please don't be hard on yourself because you can't do the things you used to do. You have been through so much already. I wish I could give you a hug.....I have totally been there.
Let us know how you are doing and know you aren't alone,
Tracy
and Arnica?