hi folks,
im in an awkward limbo position. neruosurgeon says i have a small chiari, but has not yet confirmed its causing my symptoms, so no treatment plan yet.im awaiting an ultrsound scan on my heart to confirm if i have marfans syndrome, and to what extent.
whilst im waiting, my symptoms have settled a little again.my speech is back to normal (no more sluring), and my balance is generally better.however i still get brain fog, especially when alots going on, and this near constant headache, that often pushes to make my toes curl unless i stop what im doing. the only other annoyance is the random pains in my right hand, either foot, the odd muscle spasm bout, and this regular sensation of a cup of tea being spilled down the back of my right leg.
im currently off work sick. i was off work with the same symptoms (although initially diagnosed as a bloodclot on my brain, then they decided it wasnt that after 6 months treatment) from october 2011-may 2012. my latest bout started at the end of october 2012, and ive been off work since (bar two days to see if i could cope before christmas).
i teach/lecture at a college, im the course leader of electrical installation so train apprentices from scratch to fully qualified. i teach all aspects of it, and also oversee the running of the courses for a total of about 70 students aged 16-56.
im able to function better around the house now, doing jobs when i feel good, and stopping when i feel bad. i feel guilty about not being at work and worried i might lose my job, but i found before christmas that i couldnt cope, when my head was really bad, i couldnt stop, i had to teach.
how does everyone else manage? if you push through it everyday do you still survive? how do your family/friends understand that you can put a brave face on and seem "normal" for spells of time,but not feel well enough to commit to work?
i dont know what to do. still waiting for a full diagnoses and decision of treatment. alls i know is this condition whatever it is has made me change career massively twice, and take 28 months off work in the last
Any information you can give me would be so amazing!
