Welcome to Ben’s Friends Michelle (it seems that Hawks are a common trend in usernames amongst this community).
So you had the decompression - congrats! The road to recovery may seem long, but rest assured the days of longing for the treatment are over. You are on your way to beating this.
I encourage you to get involved in the discussion, ask questions and start your own threads. This community is here for you!
Once again, welcome to Ben’s Friends Michelle!