Hi! I'm hoping this won't be TOO long, but I do like to ramble... ;) I hope this is the right place to post this. I just found this site yesterday, so while I'm not new to 'message boards' (been on parenting boards since 2005) I AM new to this one.
A bit about myself in general.... I'm a 35 (almost 36) year old single mother of 3. My identical twin girls will be 11 in December and my son is 4.5. I've been single since the day my son was born and solo parenting is quite an adventure. I live on Kauai and have been here since August 1985, so... a LONG time.
I have 'mental' issues in addition to my physical ones. My biggest mental issue being social phobia, so computer socialization is where I get 99% of my real life support.
I'm pretty positive that I've had issues caused by the CM since birth, but my mom would have to be the one to tell of most of that since I was a baby at the start and I really don't remember most of my childhood. From what I DO know that she has told me... I had feeding and growth issues from birth (was 13 pounds at 13 months... the same weight my son was at TWO months). The doctors thought I had hydrocephalus around 8-9 months and I was about a day away from having a shunt put in before they decided that they could find no swelling, so the problem must've corrected itself. I had balance and developmental issues... didn't sit up til 13 months even though I could speak in sentences at that same time. Head and stomach issues were constant complaints throughout my childhood.
When I was 15 I started getting migraine status pained headaches, so my mom took me to get an MRI. That is when the CM was first diagnosed, but all I (and she) knew was that something was different about my brain.... and we had no clue WHAT any of it meant. I was supposed to get a repeat MRI at 19, but my insurance under my dad (parents split when I was 15) ran out right before the MRI was scheduled. He couldn't afford to keep me on his insurance even though he wanted to... so that was the end of that.
I've always lived w/ balance issues, headaches, stomach issues, and fatigue, but it was just 'normal' to me. I believed (and still somewhat believe) my ex when he thought I was just being lazy and pathetic cuz even though I KNEW 'something' was off... I had no clue what. My symptoms have worsened considerably this year. Fatigue is extreme, headaches are more frequent... I get dizzy, nauseous, etc.... My mom found the old MRI report among a few other medical reports of mine, sent it to me, and that's where my research started.
My MD (love that guy... he doesn't know much about CM, but takes my word for things and is trying to point me in the right directions to the best of his ability) got me a new MRI done in August. Apparently there has been no change in the MRI, but I don't know what that means cuz there is definitely a change in ME. I saw the only neurologist on island shortly after the MRI and he says that the CM is not significant to be causing any of my issues. I was SO discouraged after that visit, but a friend of mine sent me a link to a discovery health video about a girl who's CM wasn't even detected by MRI.... yet her symptoms were so severe that she was confined to a wheelchair. That made me think again that maybe I'm NOT crazy after all. I don't know for a fact what of my symptoms are or are not caused by CM, but at least I know it is POSSIBLE.
We have no neurosurgeons here, but there are a couple on Oahu and one of them comes to Kauai on Fridays. My first appointment w/ him is scheduled for October 19, so we'll see what happens. My best friend is thankfully coming to the appointment w/ me cuz I am very overwhelmed.
I was working very part time until the end of July, but my fatigue and pain are such that I could not continue. We've been on welfare since my ex left and I've now filed for disability. The welfare disability department is giving me a ton of hassle and if the NS doesn't say I can't work.... we're going to be quite messed up.
I have a very strong faith in God though, so I'm TRYING to trust that He knows exactly how this will all work out. I am 'naturally' a worrier though, so it's very difficult.