I hope you all dont mind the larger font, I find it easier to read, lol so I can correct my typos, even tho I am fluent in typonese I am not sure if you all are as well, hahaha.
****WARNING...I RAMBLE....LOL****
OK, so does anyone else have fibromyalgia as well as CM? I was diagnosed with Fibro-whats-it? ( thats what I call it, because everyone asked whats that? lol)3-4 yrs ago now....to be honest, I have such a difficult time, with time lines, memory I cannot say for sure how long it has been.
When I went to see the neurologist, Dr Fast, he asked me a lot of questions, my son was with me, thank god, he could answer a lot of them for me. Does anyone else have difficulty understanding things sometimes or am I just stupid? Its funny, I used to feel smart, I even took mensa tests and scored quite high, but now, it feels like people are talking way above my head sometimes..ok, a lot of the time, LOL. Anyways.. he was asking me about pain in my neck, arms, legs, headaches etc.etc....and I found it difficult to answer him for 2 reasons, 1) I am on pain meds, due to the fibro, deg disc, OA, and spinal stenosis and 2) I have been in pain for so long now, its just part of my life, its all a blur, it all intertwines. There are many times, I dont realize something is sore, like my neck for example, until someone touches it...forget about massages, my muscles are so tight, sore and sensitive, if anyone touches me, I cry.
I end up in more pain than I was in before the massage. Even with the pain meds, I am still in pain, they just make it manageable..so I don't know if I gave him the right answers...I have learned to ignore, put up a wall, between me and the pain, so unless i sit down, close my eyes and just let myself "feel" what my body is saying, I can't say for sure. I don't know if my friends/family realize that when I say I am in pain, I AM IN PAIN, when Im complaining, I am in more pain than normal. I often think if any of them, had to live one day, with all the pain in my body, they'd want to kill themselves...Ughhh, I dont know if any of this even makes any sense, or if I am just talking gibberish. The symptoms for both CM and fibro are so similar, how does one separate the two?
I don't know if my NL is going to suggest surgery, but I suspect he will, because he had said that if it is as bad as he thinks it is, it "can be fixed" as he put it. I have since read, on here, that if the Dr says it can be cured, he is lieing...but I will cross that bridge when I see him on Oct 12.
Im so sick n tired of being sick n tired, my Dad calls me lazy...I start to wonder if I am....I am so tired all the time...I daydream that I have the surgery, and *poof* I get my energy back, I am able to go on walks and exercise again...I am able to do all the things I do not have the energy or ambition for now.....OK, I am done my ramble, I think I have time for a nap before work, LOL. Have a great day all!