Okay, I am not going to say anything bad about him because he cleared me for anything I want to do. I can drive, I can life, I can return to work. Who cares about the remaining symptoms that I am having; cause he doesn't even seem to notice.
Told him still having bad migraines and headaches, advised him last migraine last 8 days and just got over it, no reaction. Asked for more pain pills to help ease the migraines can only give you 15 cause I do not want you to get addicted to them...If I am am using them every 3-4 days to assist me to go to sleep (which I told him) lets see on four days that's at least 72 hours plus when I finally get tired from exhaustion on day four without a pain med...how is that getting addicted?
Back in jail at home too, back to the days of not being allowed to do anything again. All I wanted to do was walk to the garden and pick 4 -5 tomatoes for a friend, but was stopped by certain family members.
Outside of all you, when will the "normals" listen? When will we be able to try to do things for ourselves and not be coddled like a baby?
We as Chiarians seem to get it coming and going either you do not look sick and you should be able to do that task to the other extreme of you are sick, do not do anything stare at these walls (please excuse me while I wipe the drool from my chin, if I am allowed to do that). Heck I do not even know if I am allowed to think for myself anymore. since I do not get asked what do we need from the store ( I used to do 95% of the grocery shopping). Sit, TV or Radio, Drool. I guess I should accept my future without to much complaint cause I complain when my plate is too full but to take everything away from me all at once.
Done venting....its dark outside so I might as well go to bed, heck (and this is odd), I even do not even feel like playing on Facebook.
You are not worthless! You are always helping people out on the boards here, I know that you are a great dad, and an awesome husband! :) I think because you are so valuable your family is just worried about you doing too much too soon!
We are all allowed to vent. You have been through hell the last few weeks and you have handled it like the amazing man and person you are. As far as you surgeon goes....What a crock of chit. I was in awful pain for months and got similiar treatment. You may need to talk to your PCP for additional pain meds. Your family is worried about you and you are so important to them they don't want you to be in additional pain. They saw you when you were in a haze of pain and meds in the hospital and I am sure they are still working on getting over that. This is temporary and you are lucky that you have people that care enough to bug you. I know it might not make it any better right now but you have so many here that care about you.
Oh my gosh, you took the words out of my mouth. My life was going great, I had just gotten married, only one quarter of school to go until I graduated, my business was picking up, we were talking about starting a family... Two months later I'm practically bedridden. My husband won't let me do ANYTHING for fear of "overdoing it" and suffering those consequences. He has talked about getting me a wheelchair so I won't get sick when we (FINALLY) get out of the house together - totally mortifying.
I just wanted you to know I sympathize. Just taking things one day at a time and praying that eventually I'll get back to the life I love and miss.
You and your wife and baby are in my thoughts! Katrina W.
Thank you all of you. I am a little better today. OF course I cheated and id what I wanted to but Chrissy went to the hospital to get more checks ( her OB office does not have the equipment{an ultrasound machine} which I find odd with 6 MD's in practice there) and they took Emma. hehehe they left me a car and Katrina. So Katrina and I went to lunch at, yep you guessed it, McDonalds, the gold old golden arches.
So I got a little of what I wanted with out the you can't do that speech plus time with K, who is having some jealous feeling and it is looking a little better today. I am trying to pull myself up and out of this slump and negativity but it is hard this time. Like I probably have posted before.,.
I am used to doing things my way, being the provider, being the rock and foundation of which everything is built and then feeling like having all of that taken away ;even with good cause and intentions it still hurts and causes pain and frustration and other negative feeling as I have expressed.
I just got of the phone with my step-mother and that helped a bit she can see both side of the situation and she is NOT playing favorites :(; it is a good thing that she's not she can remain neutral :). I think really a lot of the frustration is you all know how full my plate is/was and I was doing ok and my plate was snatched away. all I ask is let me do things, I will ask for help if and when I need it but let me try so I do not feel worthless.
Thanks again for the encouragement and support and letting me vent some more.
Oh my oh my how I feel everything you wrote. I think this is my biggest fear post op. People treating me like a baby after surgery and scrutinizing my every move instead of allowing me to decide for myself (since I am in my own body and know myself and how I feel better than anyone) what my comfortable limits are.
We can take comfort in knowing that they care about us. And at the end of the day they are acting out of concern.
I'm sorry that you're feeling like this. It's hard to have your independence taken away :( It will turn around soon though :)