I am sitting here thinking how I have good days and bad days. The good days aren't by any means pain free perfect days, but better days. And the bad days can be really bad days. But as I wait to hear from the Mayfield Center I ask myself, IF I was told/offered to have surgery in the near future, would I go ahead and do it? Or try to wait as long as possible?
So for those of you that may be in the waiting phase too, or playing the doctor hopping game, what would you do?
I see the pros and the cons. I think for myself I would want to go ahead and have it done. I have seen the progression of my headaches, back pain, neck pain, the chronic fatigue, no sleep, and all around depressed because I have no energy for anything. For some one that is very OCD and house is always clean and stuff is always where it belongs, I found myself over the weekend laid up on the couch watching my husband do it, and I was depressed that I didn't feel like doing anything. I cried at the drop of a hat or even just thinking about it. Not wanting to go anywhere if I have to walk around a lot or sit in my uncomfty chair at work all day is just dreadful. A year ago I was active, loved playing outside with my kids, going to the pool, playing and wrestling around with them at home, and now the thought of doing it is painful.
But on the other hand, you read the good and the bad from surgery. I know everyone is different, and I have had 7 surgeries myself and always bounced back pretty quick, but nothing like a brain surgery. And I know I was younger with those surgeries too.. lets face it, as you get older it might be different lol
The thought of the pain, the missing work, the recovery alone is what makes me question it. And think why not wait and see if it gets any worse before having surgery? But then again, the recovery is temporary (hopefully) and the way I feel now is not temporary. So maybe surgery would be the best idea. Of course this is just all thinking, I haven't had surgery offered to me, and am still in the waiting game, but like others, I am thinking about the what if scenarios.
Guess I am curious for those of you that have not had surgery what your thoughts are? Or for those that have had surgery do you wish you would have maybe waited longer?