Hi there,
I'm coming up on 3 1/2 months post op and so far I have not found that the surgery has changed any of my symptoms. In fact, after surgery I ended up with costochondritis and a pinched nerve to add to my issues. Saw a nerve specialist last week and he suggested nerve surgery to fix the issue. Ummm, no thank you! Then went and checked in for a follow-up with my primary and she said, "I really wish you would have looked into the surgery further before having it.I just don't know what to do to help you anymore" and told me that perhaps trying to lose some weight would help my symptoms clear up. Wait...why suggest surgery to fix me and then when it doesn't try and suggest that I should have researched it more?? So...like many of you, I said goodbye, went to my car, and sat and cried.
All this to say...I've decided just to be grateful. Grateful that although this strange disease is robbing me of so many things, I can still be thankful for 3 beautiful sons, an amazing and supportive husband, warm beds for my kids to sleep in as these cold winter nights set in, that we have food in the pantry and that my children are healthy. I'm thankful for the friends that haven't deserted us as the times have gotten tough, and for the friendships I used to have even if they just couldn't deal and felt that running away was easier. It really is ok, I get it! I'm thankful for another day just to wake-up!!. Even though every day brings a new set of challenges, I know I'm not the only one who has gone to bed at night and wondered if the next day was going to come. No drama, just truth.
It's the holiday season and I intend on trying to enjoy it the best I can, not just "get through it." What are you grateful for and how are you planning to enjoy the holidays???