# I just need to vent a little **URL:** \ **Category:** General\ **Created:** [February 18, 2012, 4:20am UTC](https://forum.chiarisupport.org/t/i-just-need-to-vent-a-little/819 "2012-02-18T04:20:05Z")\ **Posts on this page:** 4\ **Page:** 1
**Author:** ![Crystal2](https://yyz1.discourse-cdn.com/flex027/user_avatar/forum.chiarisupport.org/crystal2/32/436_2.png) [@Crystal2](https://forum.chiarisupport.org/u/Crystal2)\ **Post date:** [February 18, 2012, 4:20am UTC](https://forum.chiarisupport.org/t/i-just-need-to-vent-a-little/819/1 "2012-02-18T04:20:05Z")
I’m physically and emotionally drained:( I’ve been crying almost constantly for the last 24 hours, which makes my head, neck, back, and shoulders hurt even more than they normally do:( I desperately need my luck to change and in the meantime, I need those who are supposed to care about me to stop making me feel like crap. Is that too much to ask? I should probably be use to this by now, but everything was getting to me today. I use to be the “strong one” in my family…now, I’m just a burden and they never let me forget it. I’m struggling to find reasons why the world wouldn’t be better off without me. I would never act on this, but I can’t help how I feel. I’m sorry for being such a downer, but I just needed to let some of that out. Thanks for listening and letting me vent a little. Crystal ---
**Author:** ![lori](https://yyz1.discourse-cdn.com/flex027/user_avatar/forum.chiarisupport.org/lori/32/65_2.png) [@lori](https://forum.chiarisupport.org/u/lori)\ **Post date:** [February 18, 2012, 11:13am UTC](https://forum.chiarisupport.org/t/i-just-need-to-vent-a-little/819/2 "2012-02-18T11:13:54Z")
Dear Crystal...... Thank you for sharing your feelings with us....It is hard to do sometimes, ya know... This is the place to come to let it out and vent...Lord knows, I constantly come here for you guys to pull me up when I am so down I don't think I'll ever get up. It is hard for family to see us ill I think and in my case my family sometimes comes off as flat out disgusted with me...which in turn makes me feel like a loser...but I am NOT...and EITHER ARE YOU!!!! You are SUFFERING!!!!!! Does that make you a burden??? NO!!!!!! They probably don't know what to do or say ...they know they cannot fix you..so they in turn are angry...not at you..but the situation....Just a thought..what do you think??? It is weird how life works sometimes...I want my family to accept me as me and my limitations...and there are many times I cry ..wondering.."What the hell is wrong with these people???" They just don't get it. But I cannot change them..as much as I'd LOVE TO!!!!! I always figured family would be the most commpassionate.....NOT ALWAYS!!! SO....For me, anyway..I get my support here...from you, Crystal and the whole gang. This is where to be YOU...You are not a downer...you are going through a rough time...It will get better...hang on to that hope....easier said than done...Sweet Jesus, do I know that!!! Please let us know how you are doing today...PLEASE. We are here for you. Love, Lori ---
**Author:** ![TracyZ](https://yyz1.discourse-cdn.com/flex027/user_avatar/forum.chiarisupport.org/tracyz/32/609_2.png) [@TracyZ](https://forum.chiarisupport.org/u/TracyZ)\ **Post date:** [February 19, 2012, 1:01am UTC](https://forum.chiarisupport.org/t/i-just-need-to-vent-a-little/819/3 "2012-02-19T01:01:18Z")
Crystal, We will never be the person we were before CM destroyed our lives and who we thought we were. I try daily to embrace my new life and it usually doesn't workout so good. It is almost like we have to mourn who we were, and let that person go & rise from the ashes a new person. I would go crazy thinking about what I used to do and can't now. Know I am crying with you. You are a wonderful person. Please give yourself a break. Vent here anytime....You are truly cared about here. You can call me anytime 804-■■■■■■■■. I am usually at home. You really aren't alone. Thinking about you & praying for you, Tracy ---
**Author:** ![Crystal2](https://yyz1.discourse-cdn.com/flex027/user_avatar/forum.chiarisupport.org/crystal2/32/436_2.png) [@Crystal2](https://forum.chiarisupport.org/u/Crystal2)\ **Post date:** [February 19, 2012, 3:13am UTC](https://forum.chiarisupport.org/t/i-just-need-to-vent-a-little/819/4 "2012-02-19T03:13:50Z")
Thank you Katie, Lori, and Tracy:) Your kind and encouraging words mean alot to me. I don’t know what I would do without you guys. Sorry, I took so long to get back to you all. I had to work today, which was probably the best thing for me. It’s hard on me physically, but I needed to get out of my house and get my mind off things. Thank you all again for listening and caring. Crystal